England Diaries: Day 25

It's past midnight here and Day 25 has just began. I was in bed and ready to sleep a while ago, but I couldn't sleep, so I thought I'd write something on here. Yesterday, I got a letter in the post from Chesterfield College. At first I thought it was a brochure inviting me to take up a course in their college but when I opened it, I found an application pack and I remembered sending them my CV last Friday in response to the ad they had on Derbyshire Times. Yesterday was a good day. No, not because it was sunny, but because I was alone in the house and I got to talk to my mum and my sister back home. I also spoke to Karen and she told me she is going to visit her sisters in Sweden next month. I am excited for her. And I am jealous because two of her sisters live there and that she is only there for a holiday. I'd probably be psyched now if I was only here for a holiday because then I wouldn't think of missing home so much knowing I won't be here for long.

Well, tonight I am not very psyched to say the least. I'm not sleeping on the same bed as James for the first time in a long time. I don't really care now if we fall out, it probably would be better because he'd want me out of here and that is exactly what I want. Being in the Philippines and missing him is a lot easier than being here and missing EVERYTHING back home. Tomorrow is an even better day because his parents both have the day off so they'd be here all day. The difference is that if they ask me to go anywhere, I'll just say I don't feel like it or I have something to do because I don't really care now if they liked me or not. I will do the chores but I am not going out just to bloody please them.

I might text Gareth and tell him to come see me if he is ever in Chesterfield or somewhere near. It'd be nice to actually know someone from here outside of the Allen Family. 25 days of shit weather, shit telly and shit life. If not for my mother, I would have taken my return flight last 28 April. Ah well I guess I have to try and get some sleep now in my single bed. If only this noisy freezer will stop buzzing now and again. Who puts a freezer in a bedroom anyway? Beats me.