♥ ♥ Memoirs of a Dreamer ♥ ♥: December 2009

You’re the song I listen to over and over again
But I don’t seem to get tired of it
Every time it comes on I’d try to sing along and then
I’d just melt and the words escape me.
I listen to the same melody again and again
I should really know the words by now
When every time I hear them
I break down in a puddle of acid rain.

Your voice chills me in a way I can’t explain
But it’s all I ever want to hear
So I can’t really complain.
Your love is suffocating even when you’re not near
But you’re the blood that feeds my veins
So I can’t really complain.

I hear the song and on it plays in my head
Even when I’m asleep I dream of it
And I wake up wishing you were laying next to me
Here on your side of the bed.
You’re like a song that’s always playing
A broken record over and over again
But I can never memorise the words
Coz every time you come on you take me with you
And everything around us fade
You make me forget all the times you played me
And fooled me into believing you would stay
You’re the song I wish to sing along to
Somehow someday
And I dream of the day I could tell you
That you are the song that kept me together
Every time my heart needed an escape.
- Vei 11:26PM 31.12.09

This year I registered to be an organ donor to make sure my end will be someone else's new beginning =>

I have 11 hours left to 2009 and I am sat here alone listening to Owl City's Vanilla Twilight. I first heard the song on Magic Radio via streaming radio portal. I find that even though I can't relate to the song it calms me and takes me to a world I have been to before and never want to be again. It's hard for me to write poems lately because I feel too content to write anything. It's just me - I find it easier for words to flow when I am in a dark place or at a crossroads. But 2009 has been a really wonderful year for me so I have not written much at all.

The year didn't start off as well but gradually the road lead to a brighter place and it all started in April when James and I decided we are ready to move to our own place. As much as I love their family home I was itching to become a wife to James and I suppose I wanted a place I can call my own. A place people would recognise is mine and of course there is that very precious thing called privacy. In June we moved to a lovely flat which is a brisk 2 minute walk to the town centre. We've had a lovely summer and I enjoyed family BBQs in the garden!

Every uncle and auntie James has did help us a lot - from moving our stuff into the flat to sending us cheques and gift vouchers to help us buy some house stuff - most of these were from James's family: (this photo was taken on the day that we moved.)

A NEW HOME

1. Security coded entrance to our flat building 2. car park [ours is sometimes used by my in-laws when they are out in the town] 3. our bedroom 4. living area 5. study area {haven't decided on the bookshelves} 6. bathroom 7. kitchen 8. bedroom windowsill 9. lounge 10. our street

Since moving to our flat me and Maddie got a lot closer. She takes me to a lot of places with her and even just for a short ride to somewhere. We went on a number of shopping trips to Meadowhall and I am very pleased with how our relationship has bloomed into a really warm one. She, Chris and Liz have really accepted me into the family this year and even though we got off a shaky start the important thing is how we are now and carry it on into the future. Needless to say, James is absolutely pleased about this as well.

Autumn brought a lovely spell of weather with it too and compared to last year it's been absolutely brilliant.

In SEPTEMBER I finally said goodbye to WOW [World of Warcraft] after four odd years of playing it with such passion. I don't regret it - it was a very enjoyable game and I met a lot of nice people through it who I now keep in touch with through Facebook. This was the last achievement I bothered to do in WOW before I bid it farewell - for now anyway. I just might check the expansion out when it gets released roughly around the third quarter of 2010.

OCTOBER

The highlight of my year is probably when James and I went on a 3 day-holiday in London. It's our first one here in the UK and it was absolutely fantastic! London is such a beautiful city and I would definitely have to go back.

NOVEMBER

on the 11th of the 11th, I had my first driving lesson. This is another highlight of the year - close contender to London. I have to say I never expected I'd enjoy driving as much as I did and still do. It is so liberating! I never realised how much goes into driving but maybe that is because I am practising on a manual car as oppose to automatic which is what my brother used to learn to drive whilst working in Michigan. It could be quite scary sometimes especially on the roundabouts but I have learned to take in what my driving instructor keeps telling me - the phantom car is not going to abruptly shoot off in front of me. Keith said driving is like a metaphor of life and I agree. He also told me to learn to focus on what is in front of me and not what I imagine things could be. I know how to drive now, I just need to learn the Highway Code and practice on the theory and test and hazard peception tests that Keith has provided me with and also get anti-glare specs. Actually I think I may need to have another eye test as I struggled to see very well when driving today. I shall consider getting contact lenses if they are reasonably priced so I can wear sunglasses whilst driving as the winter sun is really annoying. Hopefully 2010 will bring me a full driving licence!

As I have said on my previous blog entry I made a FB account two years ago but didn't like it so I stuck to myspace and when that gotten full of people in my friends list who I have no clue as to who they are, I deleted that account and gave FB another shot. In November I found a lof of my elementary and high school classmates, school mates and teachers and it was quite nice to see how they are doing. I almost forgot how good my Primary school was. Seeing my school and classmates reminded me that it was a really decent private school and probably the best one my mum could find back then. She really tried to give me the best she could and I owe her loads.

DECEMBER

This month I spent a lot of time with Maddie because she gets quite down in the winter so I wanted to make sure she knew I am here if she needed company. I called round their house to put their Christmas tree up. She could have done that herself but I knew she just wanted a bit of company and it really is the least I could do for her.
We spent Christmas together - Liz, me and James and mum and dad. Then we went for a family walk on the 27th, had a really nice meal afterwards and in the evening they treat us to a Pantomime which I aboslutely loved!
Here are some photos!