PHOTOS GALORE - Best of Times

Picture effin Perfect!

I LOVE taking photographs because I appreciate how time works. The time never stands still or pause for us, so it is entirely up to us to preserve time inside our hearts and our minds, but I like to preserve memories in photographs as well. I know bad days will keeping coming as they have, but I know I will have something to look at and say 'hey it's not always all that bad'. Many times, when James and I get into arguments, I just look at our photos and I instantly remember how happy and amazing we are at our best. One day when I am old and grey, and possibly fat and ugly, I could look at these photos and and bloody show them to my kids so they know I was not always fat and ugly! Haha. Seriously though, I think there is more to a photograph than the naked eye can see, whatever kind of photo that may be, it always holds a part of someone's heart and their past, in a tiny little frame. There is always a story behind every photo.



By FoxyAllen



@ THE CHURCH


RECEPTION:



Wedding traditions and family speeches


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OUR FIRST DANCE AS A MARRIED COUPLE :-)



FUN AND GAMES AT THE RECEPTION :-)




















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FoxyMe

me with my mates

Family PiX

Allen-Blones Wedding
30 January 2006

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RECENT PHOTOS of me and my husband, James =)

POEMS GALORE - My Private Thoughts

UPDATE: **I will post some new poems I wrote soon.** |29 March 2008|

I've always loved writing just about anything. I find it to be a good way to relieve stress and anger. From when I was young, I would rather pour my tears and anger into paper, and later on read it and learn how stupid I had been, or how young and naive I once was. It was through reading my own writings that I learned so much about myself that I otherwise would have never known.

I haven't been writing a lot lately. Maybe it's because I am happy and content with my life at the moment. I usually just write when I am frustrated or angry or disappointed. I do it to console myself, without having to feel pity or wishing I would have done different. To sum my life up, there is nothing I would change, really. I know things happen for a reason, and I have so much faith in God and my family that I don't always have to know what the reason is behind everything.

So, I don't ask questions, I take life as it comes. I cry, but 99% of the time, I would just write than waste my time and effort into something as empty as tears and unproductive as hate.

Here are just some of the poems I have written.
NOTE: I like to write "improperly", (all in small letters) it looks cuter that way :p

The cold nights are over

I should be pleased

But these thoughts of you

Often makes me freeze

I know I hurt you

Sorry is not enough

And there is nothing I can do

To make the pain stop

I may sound like I’m recycling old lines

And I’m trying to make them sound new

But all I really am trying to do

Is tell you that I’m sorry I made you blue.

Only time can tell and your heart can decide

I’m not going to push it this time

I hope you know the feeling wasn’t all a lie

And may you find it in your heart to forgive me

In time.

- Foxy 3-4-09 -

HOME

By Vei

4:38AM home time

I never knew how much I loved you

Until I left

I never realized what it was all for

The pain you felt

I couldn’t wait to leave you

It was a mistake

Now here I am longing for you

But you think it’s fake.

I always saw your flaws

Never the best

I chose to look at the worst

And compare you with the rest

You had everything and more

And I miss you

You loved me and I left you

Now I can’t go back.

I see your open arms

Ready for me

But the seas in between us

Makes an impossibility

I can only admire you from here

And love your from afar

Now I know it is true what they say, I believe

That there is no place like home, indeed.

08-12-06
by Me -.-

i know what i am about to do is wrong
but where do i go from here?
i've been staring at this road since you left me
and the tears haven't dried since then
my vision is still blurry
my eyes still sore
my heart is still empty
from everything i tried to ignore
it's hard to imagine life without you
mornings without the dream
days of not looking forward to something
that someday you will come and complete me
and piece together my heart
it's not broken but it feels like it
every time i wake up and realise we are apart
i need to tell you a lot of things
but like this road, it leads nowhere
i'd rather turn back and not know
than walk on and find out I lost the dream
i waited for you for so long
dreamt of it a million times and more
in my heart i know you are the one i should be with
but i know that in yours, i will never be the one you need.

17-12-06
09:39AM

I know I've been weak to your charm
And I believed everything you said so easily
I never questioned how you felt about me
It was a mistake I seem to repeat so fondly

But nothing stays the way they are
Love needs to be nourished for it to grow
It wasn't really cos you lived far
But because you only wanted me in times of your sorrow

It will never be a question of how I felt
You know damn well I loved you more than you gave me a chance to show
I kept a special place in my heart waiting for you to fill it
But the waiting stops here, and I can no longer keep this

Maybe it was the right love at the wrong time
Who knows what it could really be
I can't keep guessing how you feel
Until you know what you want, we will never know the deal.

I have been stupid and blind for so long
I hope you enjoyed the show, cos now I know where I belong
This girl has realised her real worth
It's sad that you didn't, cos I would have loved you all my life,
I would have given you things you never had, or ever will
But the game stops here, finally
Look elsewhere cos your fall back girl is no longer gonna be me.



18.12.06
6:12AM

Every time I take a step forward, you take two steps back
This scares me but I don't let you see
I don't have much courage in me when it comes to you
Because I've never been in love as much before I met you.
And I can say, there is nothing I wouldn't do to be with you
But when I try to get closer, you pull so quickly back
So I'm not that strong, you knew this from the start
It's not an excuse but it's hard to say when we are apart
I have tried many times to dismiss the love I feel inside
But I fail each time, cos I end up wishing you were by my side.
Somewhere in my heart, I know we will make it
"When" is the question I wish I knew the answer to
All I know is that I should be with you
And I feel that somewhere in your heart, you need me too.
I don't tell you these things that I feel
You probably will laugh at it and say, "it's surreal"
But in case I never get to tell you what's inside my heart
Just know that I have loved you right from the very start.

by: Vei
1:12AM / 5:11PM

I can't believe how fast time dashes by
I didn't even see the sun before it has set
Look at us now and how far we've swam against the tide
After what seems to be only days since we've met

So many things have changed and yet they're still the same
Your smile still says I am the best thing in your life
I couldn't even remember the way we came
But I don't worry because you're always beside me in every stride.

We walked together in the summer days and enjoyed the sun
We laughed until we couldn't breathe anymore
In the cold nights that followed, our strong bond is still next to none
You were always there even when we didn't know what this life is lived for.

Could I really say I've left home for you?
Sometimes I'm not quite sure
You have been my home for a time now
And my heart beats inside yours
And I realise that it is with you
That I feel safe and sheltered from whatever storm
You love me body and soul and the flawed heart I don't dare show
And for all of the many reasons, yes YOU are my home.

18.12.06
9:35AM

I can't believe I just told you how I really feel
Damn it feels good to let it all out
It's been too long to keep them buried inside me
And if I never get the chance to see you, I will be happy
To know that you know what is inside my heart
That I have never stopped loving you even when we fell apart
And the times you were away I have missed you everyday
Now that you're back in my life, there is so much to say
When I think about you, I wonder if you are happy
Then I smile to the thought that sometimes you wish you were with me
I long to be in your arms and be able to talk with no words
To be close to you is enough, I'd be happy
Not one day passed when I didn't think of you
Somehow I knew I will always be in love with you
I don't know what it was that you did and didn't do
But I have always cared and wished your love was true.
And I will keep wishing until that moment comes
I know you are worth every single minute
And if you decide you no longer feel for me
I still won't regret loving the person you are entirely.

______________________________


19.03.2006

by Vei



How do you get over something so complicated?

You lose yourself in the mere thought of it

All my life, I never felt so obligated

Until the day I realised my life didn't make sense without you in it.



How do you solve something that is not a problem?

But a bitter truth that cannot be changed

It haunts me all the time and it won't go away

I can't fight it because I no longer have the strength to find my way.



How do I get over someone who had been a star?

Shining down upon me when I was low to the ground

He had been a dream but sadly, it all ended

And along with it, a genuine smile that has forever faded.


I truly miss you and I realise it more each day

I regret the day I traded you for another, I curse that day

You asked for forgiveness but I didn't listen to a word you said

I didn't know it was the last time I'll ever be happy, how life make us pay.

___________________________________________________________
Beautiful Stranger



I met this beautiful stranger

He took my breath away

I wanted to get to know him

But I didn't know what to say

I dreamt of his smile before

Tasted his lips and wanted more

I felt his breath on my skin

Yet fate has been very mean

Can I see you smile again

I haven't seen it for a while

A beautiful stranger you are

Always had wish you weren't so far

I don't know everything about

This beautiful stranger in my dreams

In fact, I may not know him at all

Though I know nothing is what it seems

Indeed he wouldn't catch me if I fall

Yet I'm still wishing he'd call

I want to take a chance on you

Yet it frightens me to even try to

And before I can even run away

I've fallen in love in so many ways

And I wanna tell him so much

That I still dream of his touch

But as much as I want to tell him this

This feeling I shall have to dismiss

So stranger, see you in my dreams

Maybe there you'll feel the same as I do

And who knows maybe there

I can make you love me too





Goodnight Beautiful Stranger



Beautiful stranger
You captured my heart
I don't know how you did it
And i don't know how you tore it apart
All I know is I fell
Into your bittersweet spell
You had a voice of an angel
I hear it even in my sleep
Right that moment
I knew I've fallen so deep
One night, I thought you were falling for me too
But perhaps i was just dreaming in blue
But I'll never forget the day I fell in love with you
Cause that's the last day I ever loved true



Goodnight my beautiful stranger
I'll see you in my dreams
When we're there together
We'll do the things that I miss
Goodnight beautiful stranger
I'll blow you a kiss
Hold you in my arms
Please don't resist
Sweet dreams to you
It doesn't matter if not of me
As long as you sleep tightly
That's enough, I can sleep soundly
______________________________________________

One Night in September

20-11-2004/Vei



I keep all your mails and I read them all the time

I read them when I'm lonely because they make me smile

I read them when I miss you and wish you were here

And right now I'm reading them again, still.

I have tried to busy myself with other things

I did it to get you out of my head

But I guess it just doesn't work that way

Because it's still you I think about at the end of the day



It's been a long time since you wrote me last

To you I'm probably just a thing of the past

We still talk but you've been rather cold

I don't know what I did that we got to this point

We're almost like strangers, so we are

Nothing like that night you held me in your arms

I've never felt so secure and peaceful the way I had with you

Never laughed as hard and care free the way I did with you

I don't know if it's something I did or didn't do

But somehow I wish you'd let me know

You couldn't tell me it's nothing because that wouldn't be true

We both know the feeling was strong

I just couldn't figure out where we went wrong



And I miss you now more than I ever have

But I don't want to be just your friend

And I know you know it too, if you only think of the times we spent

We could've talked all night, kissed and cuddled in between

We had a perfect time together, it was better than a dream

Perhaps it was my fault because I ran away,

But remember, so did you

I got scared and you did too

I know I'm only telling this to myself cos I can never tell you

I will just pray that one day you'd be looking back too

On one beautiful night in September, we did fall in love true.


__________________________________________________________

15-11-2003



I'm back here again with my pen

Trying to hear my thoughts in spite of the rain

I've been sitting here trying to find the perfect words to say

To try and tell you why I had to run away



It's not easy to understand, I know

It's even harder to love you and not let it show

I look at us together and I wanted to cry

Instead I look away and cover the tears with a smile



To me, you're almost perfect, just so right

I wish I was stronger to give this one a fight

But right now all I know is I need to say goodbye

Love you in silence and wait till my heart is done with its last cry.

_____________________________________________________________


I always think about making love to you

As soon as I close my eyes I see and feel you

I will never forget how my heart beat laying next to you

In your arms I felt safe and brand new.



When I look into your eyes, I see your heart

And I feel it too even though we're far apart

It's a strange feeling I'm not used to feeling

Now I'm saying words I'm not even used to hearing



I wish I can tell you all my thoughts tonight

All the dreams I have of you and I

Call me crazy but this is what I feel

I've fallen for you despite my own will


"17"


I've made a lot of dreams when I was a child

I've overcome the struggles; hard and mild

I've known what to say and say them right

I've made people's life go dim and bright



I've made promises to myself a million times

I've made some come true and some failed twice

I've learned how to reach out and how to hide

I've learned to doubt love and just keep it inside



I've made my heart heal because it was always broken

I've learned to stop tears because they kept on falling

I've known fake love because it kept on coming

I've learned to hate hope because it kept disappearing



I've made my dreams come true deep inside me

I've felt how hard it is living alone could be

I've hated and hurt people who have loved me

But I've never found the answer to why the world had always been unfair to me



I've made lots of wishes in my seventeen years

I've learned a lot of lesson when I cry every tear

Nevertheless I've learned to be stronger facing my fears

That's how my life has been in my seventeen years

________________________________________________________

WOW with James

Today, James and I played WOW for the first time since he got home to England. It's really no fun without him anymore. For a change, I've been his guide in Shadowmoon Valley and Netherstorm. It's always been the other way around and it was so much fun showing him stuff, and he can just auto follow me like I do him most of the time during out lowbie days. No horde has attacked us so far, they only gank you when you are alone and half life whilst killing a mob. What bastards! James and I have been most especially kind to horde, I don't know why. James want to kill horde but I can't be arsed to. I PVP enough and kill enough horde, and I don't need to prove to them that I can kill them. I remember this level 70 warlock who attacked James and I while we were questing when we were only level 63 & 64 respectively, the lock used a pot and big healthstone, but he still died. We laughed our arse off then. I just love cloth wearers! It's really funny when they get confused which one to for first.. They go to the healer but then I crit like mad so they decide to go for me, but James is one hell of a healer, so he can outheal and dispel magic, so they go back to him, before they know it, they are corpse walking back to their shit. Ha ha!

Just recently, I got a flying mount, but it's only the slowy crappy one. It looks amazingly cute though, I got the snowy gryphon =) I would have skipped it, really, but then I wanted to do the Gorefiend Armor quest to get my helm without going through the bother of getting a lock to summon me on the ledge. Now the hard bit is yet to come... save up 6k gold to get the epic flying mount! I was never a good gold farmer, I'd rather PVP that farm. Blah!

I got some new pics of my hunter and paladin, not the best of SS, but oh well =P

It's time we give something back to Gaia

I've always considered Nature as God's greatest gift to us. A lot of our needs come from nature, it provides for us endlessly, but we became too greedy. It's sad to think that not many people realise how generous Mother Earth has always been to us. But wee took too much, and forgot to give something back. The Earth is beautiful, precious even. It's our only home. Having said this, it reminds me of one of my favourite adverts, "Take only what you need, it's not like we can go shopping somewhere else".

I check the Wild Aid website as regularly as I can, and each time it would break my heart because I want to do so many things to help the organization but at the moment there is not much I can do but pray and admire people who can and do help the organizations that promotes Nature Conservation and public awareness that the beauty of the earth is not gonna be here forever without help from men. I know the world has many problems: starvation, wars, malnutrition, high rate of death especially in Africa. To me these are all heart-breaking, and in the future I will see it for myself, how bad it is and hopefully be able to help the children in Africa in any way I can. But the truth is, there are more people who are aware of these things than those who are aware or even cared to know about wildlife in danger, and I was born with the softest spot for nature especially animals. People often tell me, to follow my heart and I would be happy. Well, my heart is in taking care of the animals, especially those ones that are helpless, and cannot protect themselves and their species from the cruelty and greed of men. I know in my heart that I will do this one day, in the near future and I will never stop dreaming about it.

I dream of opening people's minds and contributing to the welfare of wildlife. But that is in the future, as for now, all I can do is post this blog and maybe a number of people will be awakened to this realisation. And who knows, if I am lucky, that this person can actually do something to contribute: it could be the person that was just about to go pick up a nice 100% fur coat, but didn't after reading this. Come on, with our technology today, faux can look just as fabulous as the real thing, and it won't hurt 1,000 animals just to create one lousy fur coat! I'm sure we all would like our children to see and admire the beauty of Earth nothing less than we know it now.

Amazon River Dolphin Twenty years ago, the Amazon River Dolphin was thought to be one of the least threatened species of dolphins. Now, because of accelerated destruction of its habitat, it is considered to be the most endangered. Their population is estimated in the tens of thousands.

Bears Bear populations have been decimated in more than half of the areas that they once populated. Bears are poached for their skins, gall bladders and other body parts to supply the traditional Chinese medicine trade and exotic meat market.

Black Rhino Since 1970 when their population was about 65,000, the number of Black Rhinos has declined by 96% to well under 3,000. They are killed primarily for their horns. Though trade of Rhinos has been banned for more than twenty years, there continues to be a great demand for Rhino parts. They remain one of the most critically endangered species on the planet.

Blue Whale The blue whale is the largest mammal to ever have lived on earth. Before the commercial whaling industry began targeting the species in the first half of the 20th century, there were over 206,000 blue whales in the world. In 1980, there were about 6500, and in 1990, a recorded 2500-3000.

Chimpanzee It is difficult to make an accurate assessment of the remaining chimpanzee population. By applying population density values at known sites, the total population in the 1980s was estimated to be between 145,000 and 230,000. More recent estimates show a decline to about 105,000.

Common Hippopotamus According to information collected from 34 African countries, there are about 157,000 common hippos. Numbers are decreasing in 18 of these African countries. Hippo populations carry the highest risk for extinction in West Africa where groups contain less than 50 animals. In order to be free from the risk of extinction, each group should include around 500 members.

Elephants Between 1970 and 1989 African elephant numbers were halved as over a million elephants were slaughtered for their ivory tusks. Today, numbers of many African elephant populations have recovered following the 10-year ban on the international trade in ivory. Only the enforcement of strict trade laws and well-managed conservation programmes can secure the future of the elephant.

Ethiopian Wolf The Ethiopian Wolf, also known as the Simien Jackal and the Abyssinian Wolf, is the most endangered of all wolves. Less than four hundred remain.

Florida Panther The Florida Panther has been on the United States Endangered Species List for more than three decades. Currently, only seventy Florida Panthers remain in the United States, making it one of the most endangered mammals on earth.

Giant Panda In 1976, there were 1100 pandas recorded. In 2000 that number dropped to about a 1000.

Gray Kangaroo The Gray Kangaroo has recently recovered and there are approximately one million in the current population. However, they remain under a close watch.

Gorilla The gorilla is the world's largest primate, with a weight of as much as 275 kg (600 lb) and a height between 1.25 m and 1.75 m (4.1-5.75 ft) when standing upright. A shy and inoffensive vegetarian, the gorilla is far from man's depiction of it. Only when it is attacked, provoked, or threatened does it rise to its full erect position and beat its fists against its chest to intimidate its attacker. There are approximately 120,000-129,000 left in the wild.

Great White Shark There is no known population count for the great white.

Grevy's Zebra In the 1960's there were 15,000 Grevy's Zebra and by 1993 this was reduced to perhaps 5,000.

Harpy Eagle The Harpy Eagle is one of the most endangered birds in Latin America. No one knows exactly how many are left in the wild, but scientists have located fewer than fifty nests in Latin America.

Malayan Sun Bear The smallest of the world's eight living bear species, the sun bear weights only about 30 to 65 kilograms (66 to 145 pounds), but few data from the wild are available. The World Conservation Union (IUCN) has recently (April 2004) reclassified the sun bear from "Data Deficient" to "Vulnerable". This designation means that sun bears are currently at vulnerable to extinction, primarily based on the fact that their habitat has been, and still is, shrinking.

Mediterranean Monk Seal The 1950's witnessed a population of about 5000 in the world, which fluctuated in the next 50 years, reaching a low of only a few hundred in 1992. Most recently, it was recorded that 600 monk seals inhabit the Mediterranean. In Tunisia and Morocco the monk seal population has been depleted to a mere few animals by scuba-divers killing for pleasure.

Mexican Prairie Dog In the 1960's and 1970's the Mexican prairie dog was listed as Vulnerable, a status that was elevated to Endangered in 1994 where it has remained.

Sea Turtles All species of marine turtle are endangered. Turtles face a daunting variety of man-made threats. In the seas, they are caught up in fishing nets, often intentionally to supply the trade in its meat and body parts. Their ancient nest sites are destroyed by beachside developments such as hotels. Turtle shell jewellery, combs, sunglasses and even whole shells are often on sale overseas.

Rhinos A combination of poaching and habitat loss has reduced the total world rhino population from 500,000 some thirty years ago, to less than 13,500 individuals today. The fundamental problem for the rhino is its horn. Made of nothing more than densely packed hair, rhino horn is used extensively in traditional medicine in Asia and to make ornamental dagger handles in the Yemen.

Chiru Shahtoosh is the very fine under-fleece of the critically endangered Tibetan antelope called chiru. These animals have been slaughtered in their tens of thousands to satisfy the demand for shahtoosh shawls, seen by many as an exclusive fashion statement. In October 01, in partnership with the Metropolitan Police's Wildlife Crime Unit, Minnie Driver recorded a public service announcement to help highlight the plight of the chiru.

Sharks Fishing of sharks all over the world remains virtually unregulated and unmonitored. Sharks are hunted for their fins to supply the demand for shark-fin soup, a delicacy in parts of Asia and on menus in restaurants across the world. Often, sharks' fins are removed while the animal is still alive and the rest of the shark is thrown back into the sea. This wasteful trade in leading to the disappearance of many shark species worldwide. World trade in shark's fin for soup increased 3-4 times over the past 20 years.

Sturgeon Dubbed "dinosaurs of the sea," the Sturgeon is a prehistoric fish that has evolved over 250 million years. Weighing anywhere between 200 to 3,000 pounds, they live in salt water seas and spawn in estuaries or fresh water rivers. There are 27 different species of sturgeon. The biological characteristics of the sturgeon fish make it more vulnerable to existing threats. For example, they take much longer to mature, ranging from 6 to 25 years, depending on the species.

Swift Fox In 1999, there were an estimated 279 Swift Foxes in the wild, a staggeringly low number that has put it at its "endangered" status. Captive breeding was initiated in 1973 through a privately-run program, and it has been relatively successful at reintroducing and expanding the Swift Fox population in the wild.

Tigers At the turn of the last century there were 100,000 tigers. Today it is estimated that fewer than 7,000 remain in the wild. Nearly every part of the tiger is traded, from its bones to its magnificent skin.

SOURCE: http://wildaid.org