♥ ♥ Memoirs of a Dreamer ♥ ♥

Like all of the milestones I have achieved in my life, turning 30 was something I never really thought about. When I turned 18, I didn't have a big posh party like my sister did. Instead, I spent it in the gorgeous beaches of Boracay with my childhood bestfriend, Sarah. We stayed there for nearly two months and it was one of the best experiences of my teenage life. I didn't plan any of that, I just decided a few days before the big day that that is where I want to turn 18 and just like all unplanned events, it turned out to be really awesome and unforgettable.
Likewise when I got my first job, I never pictured me working as young as 15. Not just because I didn't need to but mostly because it is illegal to work at that age. I was strolling alone the shopping centre and got talking to the owner of this little stall that sold personalised t-shirts. Coincidentally, her stall was right across Jollibee where my crush used to work. To make the long story short, I suggested to 'help her out' after school hours and weekends and she agreed. I got paid a meager PhPesos100 a day but to secretly admire my crush was priceless. Looking back at it now, it seems really silly. But I consider myself very lucky indeed to have done little silly things in life to smile upon when my best friend Nostalgia decides to visit, which is quite often. I realise that while for some people it may seem like a regular part of life to do silly things, to many people in some parts of the world, it is actually a luxury. Now, that is another blog post entirely.
While some women fantasise and plan their dream weddings as little girls, to be totally honest, I have always been unsure if I wanted to get married at all. And I never really wanted any children although that has now changed after having my little boy. I will never change him for the world, he is the absolute best thing in my life.
Now I am about to reach another milestone in my life, although not one I have looked forward to at all! Turning thirty sounds really daunting to me, so daunting I am getting birthday blues. And I NEVER get birthday blues! After wallowing in shades of purple, I realised I'm only really bothered about the vanity side to this turning thirty business. It's like the crow's feet that wasn't there a few days ago suddenly materialised from out of nowhere. The only thing is, I know they didn't. It's all psychological from hereon I suppose.
Turning thirty makes me want to do more things that I will not be able to do anymore when I am older and I plan to do as much as time will allow me without sacrificing my quality time with my son. Just as I want to tick some things off my bucket list, I equally want to try and be more spontaneous. The most memorable and unique times of my life had all been unplanned so I am going to give spontaneity a go.
Here's to the brand new spontaneous me!